I've got so much to say. But i couldnt pen down in time all my thoughts...
Anyway, Laoshi called me again just now... after the entire conversation, as usual, i feel lost.
Asked me how am i , whether im attached... as usual. But something he said, something he understood makes me feel real sad.
Perharps he is right, i just have to accept the reality that the pace in local society is so fast that no one can spare me some time.... not even my best friend( or isit not?).
He touched my heart though, giving me affirmation. But that is not what i wan to hear. I rather he give me scolding, really...
Just like someone who is the most important to me.. I realise she doesnt understand me at all. She sent me a sms, scolding me of what i did this morning. Yes, i replied defending myself. But in return was 3 smses which deeply hurt me. I wonder who is it for and why am i living in this world....
Dont worry. I wont do anything silly. Im afraid of death.
