Perharps this will be a wrong move again. Nevertheless, I'm still going to blog despite many disagreements to it... I am someone who wants to get my point across, I want my thoughts to be heard...
Rest assured I'm cool down enough to blog this and dont worry, i dont expect any actions to be taken...
" It is not that I do not want to send my blessings to you, but think, have you ever told me that both of you have become an item? So how am i suppose to give you my blessings? And this is what i am upset over...
It's just the same as the previous times.. Who's the one who told me about this fantastic guy " Kenneth"? It is such an acquaintance, on the very day i knew her, that an inner secret of someone was revealed. And i was shocked, really.. It was then I realised why NYJC was a better choice compared to TJC.
Similarly, have I been told of that relationship you had such that i could bless you and that hunk ( whoever he is, till date i dont even know..)?
Nobody would want a book with such an ending. I dont, at least. I have other options and i've taken. I did talk to you. I've asked you to tell me whatever you have to tell, or rather, what i would like to know, that day in Bugis Mos Burger, after the visit to arab st. That was when i've alrdy heard stories. But what did you tell me? Nothing but a flush in the face after the question was shot.
I've tried to ask you face to face, thats the reason why I've always tease you.. I've have tried to get you tell me in sms... but still - nothing.. and tadah, my speculation was true. I found out from friendster...
Its really hurting to hear from others but not you. Its really hurting to find out from secondary source instead of words from you... and that is why i " over reacted "( according to you.). And its tiring to always be the one initiating, poking and pushing... hoping you will tell... I'm tired. Tired it has always been like that, time after time...
Yes, I might be selfish and negligent to have blogged the previous entry.. such that "whoever it is" have access to it.. but i thought this might be better that confronting you... which i have tried the many previous times...
Do you know that i really regret forcing you to the tennis session? Because if i never did, and if you didnt reluctantly go.. perharps none of these will happen...
Or perharps... I've should have nipped in the bud years ago to minimise this great loss- 10 years of friendship..
Yes, over- reacting isnt good at all- for this is the ending i got...
But. is " not reacting at all" or " that much i've reacted" better? I doubt so, it would be a superficial kind of friendship you will be getting... and because i hate that, i'll never do that... no matter how much you say you will enjoy it.
Lastly, never once did i not bless you with sincerity.. its because i have no chance to..
... but since you've blogged that entry.. largely it concludes that my speculations are right..
Congratulations to you. I am happy for you. Really.
Bless the both of you with fruitful returns... "
