M.E.L

2007-05-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

2006-10-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

I stayed home today instead of going back to hostel.

As usual, i fell asleep trying to read my maths text book. I dont know why but i just cant control myself from not falling asleep. Well, this happens to me in lectures and tutorials too, whether i had enough sleep the previous night or not. And i hate myself for doing that.. What is wrong with me?

Im very glad i dont feel panicky today at home. And i wonder if i really should move home. But I have to be involved in most of the hall acitivites or i have my responsibilities to fufill in JCRC which requires me to be in hall. The doctor feels that i should not involve myself in it , jingting thinks so too. I really hope i can quit JCRC. But HOW? Its too late. Its a promise to all the 600 residents...

Eversince I had problems recruiting ppl and that nobody seems to give me their support, I dont enjoy doing all these JCRC stuff. What is the point of you trying so hard when the president seems so bo chap about it? When you went to talk to the hall officer, hoping he approves of the change you proposed,but the president just sits there doing his own stuff, not backing you at all. When you proposed new things to improve the canteen and the vice president agrees to go with you to talk to the canteen vendor... but then one day the president just come and tell you that he has talked to him and the proposal i proposed is not feasible?

I really regret joining and everytime i start doing JCRC stuff, i will worry about not having enough time for my studies. But what to do?

Next tues and wed is orders taking for exam supper. 2 subcommers ask me if they can be excused from it coz they are having tests the next day. I understand that they need time to study so i told them to treat it as a break from studies. They didnt reply me. And for HM, he said that he has to sacrifice welfare subcom and go for his dance. Im very angry and disappointed. And his reason is that he has his dance partner to consider and the competition is in dec, he wants to do well for competition so that he dont disappoint zhiyuan, who has been giving him help. For goodness sake, then what about me? I have my difficulty too, how am i going to explain to the rest? him forgoing this to go for dance for his own benefit? and if everyone is going to be like them, how am i going to get things done?

It is not easy pleasing everyone. I am tired of begging, pursuading and coaxing them. I really hope i can shake my hands off all these JCRC stuff.

2006-09-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

This long awaited break is not a break for me at all. Not enjoyable and not stress free.

Instead, the 3 days i spent at home was scary and stressful. Not that i need to rush to complete my things. But the thought of my work are in the hall, the thought of so many JCRC stuff undone and unsolved worrys me. I can't stop thinking about all these problems that im very panicky.

Now that i came back to hall. I dont feel good either. I think i need to see some psychologist, really. Im really afraid history will repeat itself and i will go through another 4 years of the same thing.

Feel like a POS where no one cares about u. I feel like avoiding everyone i see. No one is there for you to confide in, no one is there when you feel so lonely........

Sometimes sitting in front of this $2000 screen, i feel like crying. Yet, i dont know why im crying. There is the feeling of emptyness, helplessness and i feel lost.

Lost my sense of direction, lost my judgement, lost the zeal and motivation to do even the simples thing. Lost.. i don know what approach to take...

sigh. I dont know why. I dont know how and i dont know what to do.

roy tf outing swensens

2006-09-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

I like this entry.. By Royston.

http://billabongboy87.blogspot.com/2006_09_01_billabongboy87_archive.html

2 weeks of sch

2006-08-22T12:37:00.000+08:00

Life's great! A total new life, a total new enjoyment~

I dread coming to NTU initially..but now, i grew to love it!

Hall's simply wonderful, with great og mates, great friends, great buddies around. =P Thank you.

I'm super glad my OG for hall camp turn out more united than the actual camp ( even though there are still some who doesnt quite blend in..) ! SUpper and OG dinner whenever we can and yea! Stalkers's Sports Day every week! That's so cool!

I was telling I' yesterday and think he was quite surprised. Well well..

Also, things remain the same for BSc side, Chepera still together ( even though there are some who drifted off... ) and we had OG dinner last fri!

WELL.. that OG Dinner, OH MAN, i was bullied by all of them. ANd im really surprised I' is actually so onz.. haha. HE WAS TARGETING ME ALL NIGHT, all because of me making the whole group eat KFC.

HMph.

WEll, other than Stalkers and Chepera.. there are still new friends found. like R, B, T... quite cool~ and i went out for movie twice last week!

And here i'll have to admit, there are always both side of the coin. I spend most of my time gg out for supper and play. gonna 3 weeks and still, not a single tutorial fully done. =(

and supper always end at 1+2am..

More bad news- now that i got this wonderful companion, that is now sitting in front of me.. Campus life is definitely more than studies. XD

I love school and hall! ( only applies to PLAY)

2006-08-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM HALL CAMP!
OMG, it SIMPLY ROX!

But so sad, its over...

well, I'm so HAPPY! Didnt get to post this on tuesday coz i rushed back to hall for camp.. so im here to announce: I PASSED MY DRIVING PT!

WOOO la la!!!

hehe and tmr, Daddy gonna let me and guide me drive auto cars~

I love HAll 9!

Stalkers Stalkers Stalkers Stalkers ombaba
aiyayaya aiyaya~

2006-07-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

Back from camp! And im so excited i wanna write down everything!

I'm so happy i went! Its not the dreaful as i thought and oMG, i SIMPLY LOVE MY OG!

CAnt bear to leave them and the saddest thing is everyone is doing different course and track. =(

I will esp miss PY, I, S i guess.. BY still okie coz my roommate and T will be doing maths and same track as me!

I cant wait to tell CHERYL WHAT HAPPEN! And about........ hahaz

Btw, i passed my maths Q test! i WAS SO HAPPY that i start to spout nonsense and T was there teasing me. haha, and like QUek, when i saw my name on the result list i shouted" SHIT! i passed" hahaz.

REally had lots of fun with these ppl and i really really really really cant bear to leave them. ( felt exceptionally sad when i met my team members for my GESL proj.)

Im so thankful to have S and Quek as our OGLs also! and in fact i just came back from OG dinner~

=P

CHERYL! i CANT WAIT TO UPDATE YOU WITH EVERYTHING!

2006-07-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

So many eventful weeks has passed and this dreadful orientation week is just round the corner. =(

Decided to leave some wordprints after checking out someone's blog. I know im evil, but i'll just do more public duty later.

HER PHOTO TOTALLY RESEMBLE THAT FURNITURE WAREHOUSE GIRL! im laughing my head off and i've got an urge to tell N (my junior) after telling Roy. HAHA.

And i've got another competitor. COPYMEOW. lol. nvm lah, anyway i've lost interest.

Oh yah, i met her at the driving centre today. SHe was just the car next to me and she was wearing this sunglasses which make her look like some auntie. coz it was slipping down the nose.. oppz. Scared of the sun still wanna drive.. some ppl are just........

Met many ppl this week.. yi shen, yong chuan, this bimbo and that despo.

tHink that despo saw me but was trying hard to hide ( or really cock eye? but cannot be 2 COCK eyes right? ) Lol, but she seemed to grow taller.. that reminds me of the long tek gou.. told Kris and she was there" na li na li" haha.. if i told L, perharps he will approach her.

But definitely, she cant not know coz BK was flooded with Org ppl...

~``

well... there are many =( and >;( issues.. but sigh, we just have to face it.
sch starting, busy! but still have to look forward to it
driving coming and im scared! but still have to overcome it
gambate!

SUBARU

2006-07-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

Im going crazy!

I want that SUBARU R2! cant stand it, its so cute yet elegant~ I really hope Daddy will change his mind and let mummy get it for me.. even though VioS is not that bad either.. i just doesnt like the idea of it reminding me of test centre cars.

And cross my fingers in hope to get Camry changed to Legacy~ woOOhoo!
(though turbo is abit of redundant.)

XP

http://motorimage.net/SG/showroom/R2/

2006-06-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

Came online and realised ...

Well it doesnt matter actually. Like what happened 1 year + ago, so long as i didnt go against my conscience, i dont care and i dont give a damn whoever out there wanna say about me.

Similarly, yes, i know i have mentioned something but this is merely a virtual world where some people seek as an avenue to grumble. And perharps i thought everyone is as mature as i thought.. that there is no need for me to put a DISCLIAMER. well, i guess im wrong.... thus i copied roy's DISCLAIMER, edited, added and its there for everyone to read and understand before they read my entries.

well well, just as the bubble tea thingy i was asking my juniors to do, i understand and i tried to amend things.. but there's no need to go to a certain extent, coz i feel that we are mature enough and there should be some consensus.. and i rather there is ppl doing those things not empty promises like some ppl...

well, im being horrified coz i didnt know some ppl are as KPO as i thought. So, im not feeling well today. apologised to those who called me in the afternoon, i totally forgot what your asked and what i told your. And sO, i dont noe if im talking senses to your.. oppz. sorry.

2006-06-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

Eileen found a roommate for me! But sigh, i still wan my beloved. =P

OH, this reminds me of the mini fridge. CHERYL! I forgot im supposed to meet you! im SO BUSY! must remind me to invite you to my house to take the fridge, and yes, remind me to pass you a pair of shoes and your BLEACH.

anYway, im so screwed. i haven send my orientation camp reply slip. I havent apply for my hostel. and i havent find out how to go sch from my grandma's place. and i havent look through what im supposed to bring and take note this Sat!

N i have to worry where to find time to go for driving lessons. -.O

those ppl better know how to reciprocrate! haha

org matters- royston

2006-06-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

Can't stand it! Not to the extent that im angry.. but i am very unhappy over the way he does things.

He claims credits for everything he does. When he is in wrong, he doesnt accept the fact and he never admits it. OMG, i can name you COUNTLESS OF EVENTS.

Was telling him about this thing he has done and what i feel should have changed to better it. As if i am so free and so bo liao to change and replace his whole DAMN WONDERFUL THING.. doesnt it cost me time and brain juice to do the editing? And please, for goodness sake, its not easy to convince someone that something which he has done is not that perfect and need fine tuning to it.. DO YOU THINK I F LIKE IT? YOU THINK ITS F EASY?

FOr goodnEss sake, you are a man, and please, LOWER YOUR EGO. DOesnt mean that you dont agree with me, you can reciprocrate by giving stupid excuses. Doesnt mean that, you try countless ways to avoid it by saying, you can change? you can do one and show it to me by the dateline? if cannot, stick to the original one.. WTH. if you are a MAN, YOU TAKE INITIATIVE TO APPROACH ME TO TALK ABOUT IT, NOT WAIT FOR ME TO APPROACH YOU TO DISCUSS!

STUPID EXCUSES? isnt it so? You taught your juniors this shit" When there is a will, there is a will and that nothing is impossible" and now you are throwing that kind of stupid excuse to me that you cannot go for this, cannot do that.. you ARENT LEADING BY EXAMPLE.

ANd what differs you from that girl, when whatever i have done, you didnt ask? Yes, blame me for not telling you. Yes, my fault.. WHEN I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO AND NOBODY IS HELPING ME AND SOMEONE LIKE YOU JUST SIT THERE? I AM SO BUSY THAT I DONT HAVE TIME TO UPDATE YOU!

THINK. How much have you done in your own department? if not you throw to your subordinate, if not i am the one who did for you, if not you didnt do at all.

WOW, obviously, sitting high up there deserves this privilege.

SHIT YOU.

emo over logicall thinking?

2006-06-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

well, i cant stand guys who are emotional.. esp when they let their emo rule over their mind and that their logical thinking is totally - CHUCKEd away-

There are 3 guys whom i know who behaves like this. the one whom i know the longest is ermm... Totally angry with him when it comes to handling major issues got to do with sch management and organisation management.. haiz. and i am shocked ( really shocked!) to c him cry.. oMG, not tt he cant, not tt this is not a privi of a man, but??? nvm, this incident is still okie, vvv angry when he object me to let some ppl stay due to EMO (again).

this guy whom i know 2nd longest is ermm, better than the first. at least he will listen and apologised.. not like the first who, even though, very obviously that he is wrong, still think and act as if he is correct.

the last guy whom i know, the shortest in terms of duration, less than 2 mths, is OMG. haiz. he is far too sensitive.... tt is all i can comment.

apologise to whoever thinks otherwise. this is obviously not a good quality to me.

2006-06-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Finally! twO major events for is over! grad n camp for the xiao gua meng..

sAd that this batch of 2006 has popped afterall it is the first batch of trainees i took... miss some, happy some left.. but whatever it is, the process is impt and everyone makes a diff

Well well, glad tt pop went smoothly ( at least no major cropped up, if not i will kill my PA... =P) oh yah, cant stand A person, i noe and i have been trying hard to ustd and make things easier for her ( afterall im going into this line.. but i just dont ustd some of her words n actions)

welL well, shocking for all ppl.. unexpected i noe, i do question myself if i make the right choice. what abt u?

okiE, june is endIng and it means maJor biG biG events are over~ time to settle my scH thingy. =(

btw, something ( some words) cause a slight activation in some nerves located in my heart... i dont mind though... but HAIZ perharps its___________ again.

2006-06-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

For those who are wondering..

Finally the return to org is settled, even for the TIC side. but but but, this doesnt mean issues b/n us n the T are settled.

Anyway, i feel that everything is back to normal. And really, this is a place where i belong. I simply enjoy doing these. Personal achievement and satisfaction.

Splendid! =)

2006-06-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

Attention

It feels great to know people around you are concerned about you. But the attention i get is far too much that i loathed it!

Yes, finally i see the light at the tunnel and i'm almost out of this tunnel. But, I dont see the need to be so kan chiong...

But, then again, i have to thank all those friends who stand by me all these while... it really warms the heart..

Thank you.. especially Shao Wen.

2006-06-02T11:38:00.000+08:00

Twist in stories is always something i enjoyed. "Go Fishing" is an article i love so much that i cannot forget. Recollecting this, i see some resemblance in my life...

Lost a friend, found 2 other. Twisted
Lost 2 U placing - gain 3 other. Twisted
Doesnt want to work- got replaced. Twisted
Hate some teachers - going into this profession. Twisted
Somebody used to hate me- become rather close. Twisted

Life is full of twists.. enjoy them.

2006-05-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

The two of them.. #$@&^#@&#^ made me worried for nothing.. waste my time and brain cells.. So i decided not to care about them anymore. Haha

Recently my life revolves round work, shopping, org and driving!

Driving.
Eyyer, i wasted $11 for nothing coz i mix up the time.. so i was late for 40 minutes and i still pay for that 40 minutes. Hmph.

Learnt 3 pt turn and i hate it. And i have forgotten the steps.

Learnt vertical parking- quite fun! woohoo.. at least now i can really steal my mum's car, drive and put it back such that she didnt know i drove. *hehehe

Anyway... 2 more months to my PT. shiok!

Btw, went to the australia Uni fair. ermm, applied for 4 U and i have alrdy got a placing in one of them, doing Business, specialisation in Tourism, 4 years, graduate with a Bachelor and a diploma...

Told Laoshi, told mummy......

management meeting again yest. so Bzbzbzbz... but I like it. New system coming up!

johnni n huilin

2006-05-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'm sick... I'm tired.. I really hope i can just disppear from this world...

I cant judge what is the correct thing to do.

I dont know if I am hurting anyone..

I cant think what i should do to make things right...

I'm sorry...

2006-05-18T10:32:00.000+08:00

HOPE.

Received letter for interview for BaSc( edu). =)

THe interview went quite smoothly. (=

Thank you to those who are there to give me advice and support.

johnni

2006-05-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its really fated.. u cant explain why...

sometimes its so coincidental.. u cant explain why either...

2006-05-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

I have been living life to the fullest and definitely enjoying~

Yup, all thankz to Cheryl n Jt...

The long abandoned piano has been touched again. =X
Yup, havent touch my piano for years, lucky i still rmbed my favourite pieces like Fur Elise and Sailor's hornpipe and one kiddy piece ( haha)- Backyard's Friends. (HAHAHA, typing this makes me laugh at myself, coz this piece is super KIDDY. cant stand but i like it~)

hehe, and recently i have been practising this new piece- Santa Lucia and it will be my mother's day present for my mummy. =)

And after that i will practise Symphony in G major ( surprise symphony), followed by Come Back to Sorrento then Music of the Night then..... haha, hope i'll be able to be disciplined to practise...

Yup, also one shocking news- Mind made up, my position and rank in org will be reinstated soon. So, i guess i'll be super busy.

Felt so happy about myself!
1) Learning a new skill- Driving.
2) picking up what i ban tu er fei- Piano
3) Contributing to the community

2006-05-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

I see a rainbow! =)

Even though i've thought it all over and finally put this heavy stone down.. there are a few questions i really need to ponder over. hmm, nvm abt tht for now.. perharps i will seek help from philosophical books later.

Well well, I feel that there is a strange affinity b/n me and * someone* coz i wonder why everytime i'm =( somehow he will send his regards to me. even though he is just another acquaintance.. shrugs..

oH well Im in such an excellent mood today! (that i volunteer to help my sister..) haha

Its another lazy day actually, i woke up at 1130 and i have to meet my aunt at 12.15pm.. oppz.

Bought comics! 9 books at a go~ so shiok. Guess this is another retail therapy. =P [ cheryl cheryl! i bought NANA!]

went lunch with my aunt, tok abt work, my U application, and abt something which happened recently.. and so glad i tok to her! I finally realise how i look and feel abt this matter and the actions.. =)

Went shopping at Art Friend. Did i tell you this is actually a place which i love? i even dreamt of owning a even better one. yup. Bought something to make for my beloved. hope she'll like it. =)

got something for Blushing Boutique also, hope its not too childish.. cant wait!

I start doing ***** immediately when i went home and b ecause of this i have to take train to catch bus 51 which i missed to be on time for my driving lesson.

aiyah, dont noe why its recorded that im suppose to do 3 point turn but again i did routine test route driving today. eyyer, dont noe drive how many route, go back to driving centre soooo many times.. hmph.. feel so xian alrdy..

and its a small small world! I met HUILIN! omg, miss her~ acc me take bus 51 and in the end ( with lots of changes), i waited with her for her friend at lavender mrt and got a free ride home. so cool right? her fren(maybe bf~) drove to pick her up for dinner and movie! ( not girl k, its a guy, nice cool car too~) so envious~

went home and carry on part2 of ****** hehe, soooo excited! will need part 3 and then tadah! the touch up~ =)

yilin1

2006-05-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

Perharps this will be a wrong move again. Nevertheless, I'm still going to blog despite many disagreements to it... I am someone who wants to get my point across, I want my thoughts to be heard...

Rest assured I'm cool down enough to blog this and dont worry, i dont expect any actions to be taken...

" It is not that I do not want to send my blessings to you, but think, have you ever told me that both of you have become an item? So how am i suppose to give you my blessings? And this is what i am upset over...

It's just the same as the previous times.. Who's the one who told me about this fantastic guy " Kenneth"? It is such an acquaintance, on the very day i knew her, that an inner secret of someone was revealed. And i was shocked, really.. It was then I realised why NYJC was a better choice compared to TJC.

Similarly, have I been told of that relationship you had such that i could bless you and that hunk ( whoever he is, till date i dont even know..)?

Nobody would want a book with such an ending. I dont, at least. I have other options and i've taken. I did talk to you. I've asked you to tell me whatever you have to tell, or rather, what i would like to know, that day in Bugis Mos Burger, after the visit to arab st. That was when i've alrdy heard stories. But what did you tell me? Nothing but a flush in the face after the question was shot.

I've tried to ask you face to face, thats the reason why I've always tease you.. I've have tried to get you tell me in sms... but still - nothing.. and tadah, my speculation was true. I found out from friendster...

Its really hurting to hear from others but not you. Its really hurting to find out from secondary source instead of words from you... and that is why i " over reacted "( according to you.).

And its tiring to always be the one initiating, poking and pushing... hoping you will tell... I'm tired. Tired it has always been like that, time after time...

Yes, I might be selfish and negligent to have blogged the previous entry.. such that "whoever it is" have access to it.. but i thought this might be better that confronting you... which i have tried the many previous times...

Do you know that i really regret forcing you to the tennis session? Because if i never did, and if you didnt reluctantly go.. perharps none of these will happen...

Or perharps... I've should have nipped in the bud years ago to minimise this great loss- 10 years of friendship..

Yes, over- reacting isnt good at all- for this is the ending i got...

But. is " not reacting at all" or " that much i've reacted" better? I doubt so, it would be a superficial kind of friendship you will be getting... and because i hate that, i'll never do that... no matter how much you say you will enjoy it.

Lastly, never once did i not bless you with sincerity.. its because i have no chance to..

... but since you've blogged that entry.. largely it concludes that my speculations are right..

Congratulations to you. I am happy for you. Really.
Bless the both of you with fruitful returns... "

yilin

2006-05-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

I planned initially to blog down all that i thought i wanted to.. but in order to protect some ppl.. i decided i wont. if not, i try as much to blog it so that some ppl wouldnt know.. But, from today onwards, from this entry onwards... i will not be so silly to bottle up myself...

I have had enough. I have kept this to myself for weeks...

If i am going to loose a friend like this, i'm not going to care anymore. For, i thought i have already loose her. Its the 6th time. Not merely 1 or 2. I am stupid enough to give her so many chances. And i am nice enough to pursuade her to tell me this very last time... yet........

Recalling what Roy told me, i dont find myself stupid. BUT very STUPID, VERY NAIVE. I suppose its a one sided feelings, one sided friendship all along.

ANd sorry, i wouldnt be able to treat what as happened as " nothing has happened". Afterall, this is not the 1st time, afterall, i cannot judge by myself if she is treating me with sincerity, with trust or the very least, treating me as a friend.

I am too sensitive? I am too demanding? No, I expect very little. Just to treat me as a friend whom you will talk to, whom you will share. Perhaps like what JT and ROy said, you choose the different group of friends to tell. But, i dont suppose this is too much. I merely ask you to be truthful and share when i have found out something fishy is going on...

How would you feel if i were to hide something delibrately from you and somehow you found out from other friends? And its not ending here, when you asked me, i still deny... HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? DO YOU WANT TO TRY?

One more thing, please reflect on yourself. How do you judge me and my christian friends when i told you about them? What was your reaction when i told you i went to YFC for GP tuition? And especially when i told you i like "him" who is a christian? And now, please, you are dating one. How hypocrite.

I feel really lost. Please dont come and ask me if i am refering to you. You know better than than anyone else.. Please dont come crying to me and say you are sad you are worried.. Whatever.. I have alrdy been hurt by you. And sorry, i really cant forgive u as easily as the previous 5 times.... And i feel really unfair when i do share my life with you, this is how you recipocrate.

19-23

2006-04-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i blogged. Everyday passed so quickly. Perharps its because i slept till 11am everyday.

24/04- Driving lesson today and i nearly lang gah. Haha. Yip, i couldnt help it but i have to say i dont think i learnt as much and practice as much from Mr Soh's bro. And so, i practise on U turn again. Went to Bugis to pick up the tubes i ordered... No income yet i still spend....

23/04- Visited Lin Laoshi and her baby. She is really a duplicate of Mr Lim! n very very adorable~ Talked to CC the whole night till 2 +... But im still hestitant if i really should do that...

22/04- Went w yl to buy materials for Blushing Boutique in the morning, so happy, i got new earrings! n finally i can work on my oriental. In the afternoon, met up w jy,jt, lw at Settlers. After settlers, went Pop w lw. Pass by library and went to borrow books~ it has been so long since i read an English book.

21/04- Went out with CC. Woke up at 11am and i forgot all the things i need to pass her. Sorry dear. She lent me 2 comics. hehe. Interesting~ Brought her to V8 Cafe. The omelette is better than Swensens'. Really. Swensens s**. Suppose to bring her to shop for her bd pressie, but she didnt see any sling bags which she like.. and in the end, im the one who brought home many things...

Met Eileen and Anu at night to shop. Went to Icon and Belle joined us. =) Icon has changed. Tt time jt n I went, it looked like a "hei dian". lol..

20/04- Went to pick up Nana from Leanne and have lunch with her. Sigh, Outfitter GIrls having offer and i spent $45 on 1 wallet, 1 top and 1 bottom. Worth it right? hehe.

19/04- Went out to buy materials to repair my aunt's earrings and to buy materials for my belt. Met Val from Sg mint and she acc me to shop. =) Really surprised to see her there. Went to visit Laoshi and Shimu after that..Dropped by HWS and found out Mdm Lim is on maternity leave~ Managed to talk to Mr Seah only.

2006-04-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

I've got so much to say. But i couldnt pen down in time all my thoughts...

Anyway, Laoshi called me again just now... after the entire conversation, as usual, i feel lost.

Asked me how am i , whether im attached... as usual. But something he said, something he understood makes me feel real sad.

Perharps he is right, i just have to accept the reality that the pace in local society is so fast that no one can spare me some time.... not even my best friend( or isit not?).

He touched my heart though, giving me affirmation. But that is not what i wan to hear. I rather he give me scolding, really...

Just like someone who is the most important to me.. I realise she doesnt understand me at all. She sent me a sms, scolding me of what i did this morning. Yes, i replied defending myself. But in return was 3 smses which deeply hurt me. I wonder who is it for and why am i living in this world....

Dont worry. I wont do anything silly. Im afraid of death.

2006-04-12T23:36:00.000+08:00

3rd day of slacking at home ( according to someone, but its not k!)

Its time for me to wake up but i continued sleeping until Pam called me. Oh no, im really a goldfish, i cant remember the entire conversation except sharing our driving experiences. Omg.

Super worried over my face, did something to my face and it was filled with red patches the entire day.

I'm so envious! Miss Barbie Doll can actually chat with me during work! Hmph. Even back from my shopping spree in the late afternoon she was still in front of the computer and her status= ONLINE. Hmph

Yup, met up with B.ee for a shopping trip. Accompany her to lunch and mummy joined us after that. Eyyer, miss the chance of buying the mini jacket coz mummy forgot to bring her 30% voucher. Nevertheless, it was a fruitful trip. Bought new eyeshadow palette and bought 3 tops! shiok! I havent shop since last week of March coz I know i wont be able to..

Yup, lost $150 to Jerelyn so far. lol... Heartache. Any remedy?

B.ee was influenced by me and she bought some beads ( at such a dear price!) Made 4 pairs of earrings and a bracelet for her. =) Glad she Loves them~

oh yah, ppl good news good news~ My jap photo album i going to be done soon! I've done Day 1! haha, 5 more days to go only! ( but that's 596 more photos to print and paste. hehe)

That reminds me of CNY and Mummy's + My Birthday photos not developed.. sigh...

Nvm~ shall enjoy Thursday, Friday and Sat first!

Thurs( tmr) - meeting up Miss Barbie Doll! + Mardigras
Friday- TF gathering!
Sat- BEads beads Beads! maybe BOD outing?
Sun- ): must study FFT
Mon- Must do E trail test
tues- FFT.

2006-04-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, its 7th and the last day.

Yup, i chose to leave a week earlier coz last Friday i was angry with someone that i took out Kelly's number and inform them my last day would be 7th.

I feel a sense of loss, of course. But i didnt regret. The only thing i will miss are the nice ppl like Norma, Irene, Leanne..... And the only thing i feel stupid about is that i give up a job that i know so well. Its like giving up my comfort zone to someone else. And its a damn easy job....

though there are flip sides... like those stupid customer service ppl and some grumpy ppl....

Was very touched to receive NOrma's choco. Her msg as usual, reflect her character and its simple yet touching- Girl2, 4 u 2 eat.

sigh. and Irene treat me n yj on thurs to Hans. yuP, she's very right, the only thing we feel sad and will miss are tht ppl whom we can get along...

Hope Jerelyn will do fine. She took over me coz IR doesnt need ppl anymore. Coach her for 3 days, hope i am of help. =)

Ermm, and the other thing which i am =( over is the $50 note everyday... haiz.

2006-03-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

I feel great! Everything is coming back to normal.

I might be going back to SJ. I am not going to work soon and i am talking to someone again. lol

Havent been updating my blog what i've been doing, instead i have been grumbling and announcing to the whole world my =(

Let's see...

17th March- supposingly a TF dinner but in the end wenxin stuck in his unexpected meeting, yilin got some hot date with her darlings.. and so only SHiqi, me n Royston went for dinner at mahanttan...

19th March- Sir leong Bd and its ZOne 8 annual FAC. Went back to cchs and support them. what JC say is true, every year teams get worse and results get better. OMG, cheng he ti tong???

Saturday 25th-
Morning, my little niece came over. She's so adorable! grown up a little, so sweet. omg, she's really like an angel.
in the afternoon,met Jt up for tea at Hotel Intercontinental then meet huiling and yan ling to pass them the earrings which they want. Hmph, didnt get to shop w jt... Oh man, i cant afford to do this anymore after 13th Apr. =(
After that, went for dinner and chatting session w mok n bzj..

Sunday 26th-
Packed a little of my room, yh sort out Japan photos, now ready for printing, and i finally did my collage of photos. =) so nice, so happy. it's pasted on the wall. think this idea is better than photoframe, easier to clean up and i can let out my creativity.
Watched Memiors of Geisha. Dont think its nice. I rather read the book.

zhiwei

2006-03-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

feel rather sad yest. haha.
but its my fault, i gave up my seat in the bus willingly. So i cant blame on the bus driver right? afterall, i gave it up for so long.... 3 minutes?

Ermm, but i do feel relieved when i saw the lady taking over my seat.. i realised i did the right thing. =) the seat is more suitable for her..

But still, i feel a little weird...

yilin

2006-03-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

I thought things have changed for the better.

Wounds healed, misunderstanding cleared ( or isit not?), some uncertainty gone... but.... its a dilemma again.

I think i have changed. Or havent i? I do not know. But im very sure things will never be the same as before..

My mentality changed, my character changed, my aims changed, my purpose in life changed...

I realised what i wan to do, what kind friends i want, who i love the most and what is most important to me now...

But one thing which i feel rather sad for, something which made me rather frustrated about myself has never changed. It is my definition of "friendship".

I just cannot tolerate ppl who doesnt reciprocate... Perharps i am too self centred, maybe i am selfish, or it could be i am jealous.. whatever it is, if this is what tht person deemed as right, the way to handle friendship... too bad, sayonara.

2006-03-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

So v touched when i saw an entry written to cheer me up. ( i hope its really for me. )

Reading that really makes me feel better...

thank you.

2006-03-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

I'm surprised i am feeling better today. In fact, back at work im entertaining my colleague with some lame jokes...

I was thinking why.. even though i am upset over what mummy said yesterday... even though laoshi called and pricked my just recovered heart...

Why? Perharps its the little msg from Alan.. maybe its the concern shown by Chairmaine.. i suppose Anusha lightened me up too..

A little monday blues, but was exceptionally happy today.

lunch w B.ee =)
xin shan shan starts today =)
(initially) happy there's desperate housewife 2 night =)
Yj wanna me 'console' him but got tricked by me.. =)
lea sweets =)

3 things learnt

2006-03-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

I learnt 3 things these 2 years which are worthwhile to rmb for life

We human beings are always hoping for the best.. to the extent that this blinds one...

I am a good example. If you asked me what i have taken away from my JC education, i will tell you my CCA. thats all..

Nothing else. I will simply tell you: I regret going to TJ.

And thus the morale is- not to ask and hope for the best... really..

The second thing is how important i came to realise my family is to me. Daddy has changed to care more about H n me... mummy never ever gave up on me, instead, no matter how disappointed she is she will support me. And something which im very glad, though i came to realise only 3 days ago. That is, my brother cares for me. My aunt... my godmother...

But most noble of all- mummy, i cant imagine how i will be able to survive without my mum..

Lastly, to learn what setbacks are.. never in my 19 years did i rmb that i mourn for so long, i need such a long time to recuperate.. haha.. my god mother told me today, there are many to come.. Perharps this is a blessing in disguise? which will better prepare me in future... wHo knows?

thank yous

2006-03-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

Feeling sad and happy at the same time.

Though i have been waiting and have been disappointed so many times today.. i realised how much some people actually care about me, and that some friends, though not that close, are actually that sincere...

I never expect anyone to come console me... simply because, someone whom i expect she will did not......

So in the midst of my disappointment, i felt warmth. And very sorry to say, i see who i can really entrust my problems in.. who i really call a friend...

Royston, thankz...

Pam, thank you...

Alan, really appreciate you never ever forget me.. on my As, on my bd and everytime when i am =(....

and of course, my beloved... Jingting... you know what you did for me...

inner thoughts

2006-03-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

Whilst many people spend these two days enjoying their jubilee, i spend my two days at home mourning, healing my wound.

To make matter worse, i have another thing to be upset about... and there are so many "concern" friends who rubbed salt on wound...

I learnt to be happy, i learnt to see things from a different perspective, i learnt to live on, i learnt to pick myself up... for nobody else is going to pity you and wait for you...

But i cant help it, i cant and i am still in my miserable nest crying.

2006-03-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

Asked a few ppl for suggestions and my best friend C thought that i should follow my decision, for it wouldnt turn out to be something which will make me enjoy.

Asked another of my best friend, B. As usual, her advice comes with suggestions to what to do, so that the situation can be saved.

But before i received B's reply, Daddy came to know about this and asked me what for i should give in to them. Similarly, he felt that they dont even have the basic respect and courtesy...

Actually, its no big deal to miss this fun, but just disappointed it involves this person A. B thinks that i should tell A. I thought of that, but would she change even if she understands?

I never understand these 2 things, why isit that my attendance are being passed around in that way and why isit it would be her who will pass me back what is mine ...

siyin's bd

2006-03-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

I hate ppl who speculate, without finding the truth and jumped into conculsion.

Even how true your speculations are, so What? Its still assumption.

And to disregard my suggestion without showing the simplest form of respect.

Worse, to be a coward, to pass msg to me.

Fine, let your assumption be correct and i shant disappoint your.

lyrics

2006-03-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

Nobody knows who I really am.

I never felt this empty before.

And if I ever need someone to come along...

Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

Tabi wa mada tsuzuitkeku

Odayakana hi mo

tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo terashidasu

Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu

Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

21st n 22nd feb

2006-02-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Okie. The long awaited day has arrived. I've received lotsa surprises for my bd this year. and yes, firstly, as i promised, i shall pen this down esp to thank someone.

Mr TEreNce YAp, for remembering my birthday and for being the first on my bd to wish me. ( n yes, at 12am sharp~) thankz!

truthfully, i was surprised he rmbed( but i guessed he figured out from my nick.) Nevertheless, a big thank you!

Yesterday ( 21/02) was initially a super bad day. But the later part of the day turned out to be better. To my surprise, my colleagues actually bought a little gift for me. I never expected that.

Went to pick up my ice cream cake after work and i was impressed by the staff on how thoughtful they are. ( read more on sUnd4yz) And on the train home, there was this lady who asked me abt my cake and wished me a happy bd. haha, for the rest of the day i was in super good mood.

yup, not forgetting 2 special friends.

No. 1 - MR TAN BOON XIN! i hope he does see this. for the super early birthday wish~ wOw, for the 1st time he doesnt need any reminder. wooO! sg is going to snow soon. =P

No.2 - CheryL! for being such a nice friend to try her best to get what i want. Her birthday letter to me is humorous yet touching. xie le!

``~*
19th Birthday take aways..

its a special year and i have a mixture of feelings to receive birthday wishes from a new group of people. aLso, its the last year to be in my teens, i've realised a change in practice. WE prefer practical gifts, be it to receive them or in return, and at least among me n my friends, we wouldnt mind telling what we want. however, still, we will maintain a certain degree of surprise.

``~**
Thank yous

for the birthday msgs- Shing Huey, Wen Xin, Bin, Felicia, Royston, Bella Ee,Jing ting, Vincent, Jason

for the birthday songs- Gielle n her mum

for those wonderful prezzies- Cheryl, Pras& Yq, YILIN ( big mah?), yl's jiu mu

for the super ex haagen dazs ice cream cake - mummy

21st

2006-02-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

3 =( issues

1. nearly got blamed rgd an urgent tp- it ended up in the wrong plc

2. a blur queen ( she's more experienced than me for goodness sake) put something in my tray causing a series of wrong procedures and extra things done- lucky misunderstanding cleared, if not it will be MY FAULT AGAIN

3. Was told by officer that stupid mistake ( not exactly my fault, though i am the one who made it) caused a loss of US 1K for the bank. was =( untill officer tells me its not my fault and not to feel bad. ( WHICH I STRONGLY AGREE and have to EMPHASIZE, PLS, IM ONLY A TEMP STAFF WHICH ONLY 3 WEEKS EXPERIENCE THEN, HOW wld i know tht is an exception to other TPS?)
------------------------------------------------

okie, vented all my anger.

I received something today in addition to my birthday wishes. A xmas card. ( huh? dont huh)

It rotted in Roy's house for 2 mths and now, it finally found its owner- me.

Finally, somehow he got his mum to pass my mum the xmas card for me from wx. lol.

read what wx wrote, totally impressed by his language, touched by his sincerity.

thank you. ``~

Summary- 13th- 17th

2006-02-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

13th, Mon

Nothing much, or rather- i cant rmb. lol. ate lunch w the DD girl. lol. new fren
=)
gu yi make myself free and awake to watch DH!
``*~
14th , Tue

lol, valentine's day. Mgr gave a rose each to us. costs $3 leh. not cheap and its for everyone in his section. mummy asked why i didnt bring back home. bought yl's prezzie - part 3! after work, give tuition
``*~

15th ,Wed
not feeling well suddenly at work today, made a super big mistake and the mgr ask me " what happened". eyyer, till now i didnt noe if i REALLY MADE THAT MISTAKE. i checked but dont have.... eyyer, its over and no big deal just an apology only. went to apologise to IT and today (17th) she came to ask say sorry to me coz she feel bad making me cry tht day. lol. She's so nice, dont ustd why P dont really like her. oh yah, B.ee reassured me the CDP mistake is no big deal coz its merely failing SPL, perharps or perharps not the customer will complain.

Went over to give Gielle tuition coz she hv prob w her Han yu pin yin. so i miss yuan lai jiu shi ni! eyyer. lol
``*~

16th, thurs
overslept and late for work, lucky- escaped. But aiyah, tts my new year resolution leh. still haven changed.

Lunch w B.ee at Paradiz and met DD girl and Leanne. Did something sinful ( to me), that i dont like lunch w somebody coz i feel that its a chore to tok to her coz the topics she tok abt is not intellectual.

met cheryl after work. Ate mOs, shop, buy another T shirt from Ebase and she bought a shirt. SO SUPER HAPPY! i RECEIVED My First BD prezzie! but im going to open on 22nd. hehe.

CHERYL, Love ya! u r the 1st wor, honoured ma?

wanna order swensens ice cream cake for myself but mummy lah, eyyer so mean, make me xian yi ban so in the end didnt.
``*~

Fri, 17th

Miss chen Yl bd~ lol. wished her and i hope im not last. so funny, took half day leave. lol. why not full day?
aiyah, come to think abt it, i should have taken 2 days off next week. hmmm.

Lunch w B.ee at KFC and went this fashion to shop. =)

And mummy suddenly sms me, asking me to acc her to concert tonight.

Went and the concert is superb! I miss CHoiR! roy- ccc! i miss CHOIR!

the choir is really worth it, and though they are MIC, its really an eye opener, the way they deal with the singing and visual effects are excellent and they always have little surprises for the audience.

2006-02-12T11:08:00.000+08:00

Daddy woke me up so last min that i rushed to wash up and dress up to go out. hehe, so excited! daddy driving me to register for driving after sending yh to fujian hui guan.

went for breakfast at telok ayer b4 sending yh to enrichment class and that tuition coordinator called. so shitty that parent, in the end offer me $100 for 8 lessons. siao, i not desperate for money k and my teaching worth more than tt. so stingy.

anyway, the customer service at the comfort driving centre sux, at least for tht cha bor who served me. ( oh no, i am beginning to tok like roy) and so, i paid $90 for registration and basic theory. Daddy ask me to write in to complain. haha.

and hahaha, woooo! Daddy said he wanna buy car for me after i pass. ( provided i pass right?)

but a van like car. mummy say cannot buy better ones coz later i zhuang ( choi!) how. then daddy say its for me to drive and shun bian help office deliver goods. upon hearing that, i say i dotn wan.

AND wow, in unison, daddy and mummy say other ppl wan also dont have, blah blah, have car tou xiao liao........ .....

Anyway, we went to Honda show room after that, ooooo the civics is nice and cool! the interior is not like the traditional car, speedometer is digital blah blah.. cooL! im going to ask for tt. hahaha

but i like the sports car more, forgot model le, daddy show the leaflet to his fren and gone. wooO!

** thoughts** think quite serious ba, coz he say wait till june, around the same time as i will get license....... =)

2006-02-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

Brought po po and gong gong to yum cha at TPY and met that KMC from office. SHe pretend not to see me. ahah, as if i wanna to see her. Anyway, hehe, see popo so happy im so Happy too!

Bought another pair of heels, wooo- $20 only. And came to realise its even higher than the previous pair i have. oh no..

After yum cha, mummy dropped me at bugis and i went to buy my comics. woolala! i finished buying Bleach! Went bai bai and SHARKZ! i forgot to help popo buy her special toothpaste. haha ( She said its better than colgate)

Went into Japan Home and haha, bought something for Miss chEn dabian. birthday prezzie part 2.

saw the 'Bags of love' fair at seiyu and i bought 2 more bags at one go. Oh my, so sinful right? but its so damn cheap. 1 white one for $13.90 only ( love it coz it has something like ferragamo's clip lock) and the other one for me to use during lunch. haha, so she chi right? but who cares- my birthday is coming. hehe

10feb

2006-02-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Terrence and ShiQi!

eyyer that Terrence ah, forget my birthday every year still wanna complain that i'm the last person to wish him. so Demanding. =P

Valerie is going back to Australia tonight. =(

Quarrelled with that little piggy. eyyer.. =(!!!

But still, today is a =) day coz its frI!

As usual work. but dont noe why today i quite energetic and i was running here and there in the office. haha. and i realise i can glide with the pair of shoes ( blue) todAy. lol.

lunch with Bell and Ade and i went to buy magic numbers. oppz. Didnt wanna tell Leanne but was caught by her. think the manager heard and steal laugh. Hmph. mummy knows k. but i just dont wan Bell to know, so i told Leanne to keep from her. haha.
I FORGOT TO BUY Another 4 magiC numbers. =(
wiSH me luck wish me luck! hhe``*

lots of dates to be arranged. lol. But tues cant, tuition leh. anyway, its so sad. Go out with all single girls in 2704 and exchange gift with each other? i rather sleep at home. haha.

JIanyuan asked abt NUS, jT- movie and Cheryl- shoPping. aiyo, all together. next next wed okIe??
I on leave. That is auspicious day! =P

No tuition today, dont understand what yl's dajiu wrote actually. just understand something" dont come 29". aiyoz.

okie, good and i took a nap before i face my beloved.

2006-02-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

Hehe, closed a number of deals today!

=)

Picked up a $2 note on my way home.

Took the train that heads wrong direction. =S
When my mum knows abt it, she was laughing like mad.

``*
Went to exchange for the watch. all bcoz of that piggy, caused so much trouble. Anyway, the sales promoter is like sh!t, everybody says different things. waste my time. In the v first place, they lied telling me that the purple piece is the last one, so i bought the purple one... and a series of unahppy events happened. sh!t that girl and sh!t CitYchain.

''*

8th, wed

2006-02-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

Stella called me yest to change shift with me. I agreed stupidly and this cause me to become scapegoat.

Because of this, i report to work at 10.10 instead of 9am and thus, the cables rm(CR) was in a mess. Poor Pras was the only one in CR doing 4 ppls' job from 8.30- 10.10am.

And so, lots of faxes were not faxed out, lots of incoming faxes were delayed and so some departments receive them late and so they COMPLAIN.

AND SO, BECAUSE IF I AM IN CR, I AM THE ONE DOING THOSE AND I BECOME SCAPEGOAT. SH!t them. ANd ALSO, because i am new, just because i am new, they can put all the responsibility and blame on me. What the F.

WAS supER angry and i voice my displeasure by saying i dont like working here to Bell and Said i am leaving soon.

( so happened Bell was confirming with me the duration of my stay, and so i said that)

Its true, i went to register with 2 schools today as relief teacher. sO im praying hard i can teach, praying hard i will be granted a chance ( to teach for long, not just 1 day).

sighz.

6th,7th

2006-02-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Mon Blues over and but tues worse, went back to do validation as 3 ppl are on mc today.

Mon blues ended with shopping w yl at ps, again. bought a bag, a jacket ( yes, on top of the 2 jackets i bought from ebase) and a bag. the bag costs $15 only! omg, fainting.

whEn i came home, my cousin, aunt and nephew was downstairs, abt to go home. mY nephew is such a darling, and very clever for his age. oh No, i feel like kidnapping him. haha. =P

and best of all, mon blues ended with my long awaited fave- Desperate housewives. oooo =)

and its a small world afterall. i met my pri sch tutor- Jermaine! ROYSTON- C THIS?!! i MET JERMAINE! lol, our pri sch el tutor. sO glad to c her and she hasnt changed at all!

and today, tues grey, i met jian yuan on train back home. small small world.

tues grey? lol. nothing much except that, the new temp staff i met today told me i looked older than he is. and he thought i am older than him. !#$@##%^$
so angry and so sad. lol. and haha, he plays ms too. =)

after work, rush home for dinner and went over to give GIelle tuition. and here i am.

4th feb.

2006-02-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

Today is Roy's and Gielle's Birthday!

Also my birthday! and it yours too! today is ren ri. lol.

woke up late, so in the end i meet yl at 11+ instead of 10. We went to buy materials for making our precious- beaded jewellery. yup, spotted a bracelet in the jap mag and we made a similar one. sO happY!

Parked ourselves at Coffee Bean after we shopped for all the necessities. Suppose to go gathering organised by Eileen, but it was cancelled in the end. So i turned up at Gielle's birthday party instead.

It feels odd, for all of the invited guests are her family members and her parents' friends. Oh n yes, what a scary encounter at the lift.

We met the guy whose the shop owner for the beads shop we often patronise and guess what, he could recognise me...... ..... the way he asked me is frightening, " xiao jie, ni shi jing tian qu mai beads de na wei xiao jie shi ma?" yikes. Me, yl and yan lin bu zhi suo cuo. THey carried on asking where is our destination, which floor, who are we visiting and told us we might be going to the same place. Omg, the 3 of us walked like the speed of machine gun to Gielle's plc. ( failed though, coz yan lin was slow)

Haha, in the end? He is yl's da jiu's fren. dotz. n yl's jiu mu is so funny, she questioned us why we didnt ask her abt her fren earlier, if not we could have saved a lot. dotz. dotz......

hehe, but GreaT! we get to have discount! woooLala~ it means, more jewelleries.

feb 2

2006-02-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

Family lunch with paternal side today. At taka, imperial jade. WooO, all of us woke up late and we thought we will be the last to reach. But in the end, we are considered " super early".

Its so fast, another year has passed. Last new year, we all were in Fu zhou, celebrating new year and to attend my cousin's wedding. This year, again, sitting together, but an additional family member- my little niece. =)

My aunt was shocked to see my hair i think, for she was staring at me for quite long. I've had my hair dyed for a week plus and quite used to it, so for a moment, i dont ustd why she was staring at me for. lol

My 2nd aunt came over and she asked me to take driving test together w Raymond, asking us to compete and see who will pass first. Omg, its stressful k. And its not a fair competition, coz he has taken and passed b4. oppz, aiyah, you should noe why.

anyway, so HappY, daddY n mUmmy kept asking me to go register. But im too lazy and i dont wanna become chauffer after i get my driving license..

I have a naughty thought, think daddy n mummy will change a new car as my bd prezzie and let me drive if i go for driving lessons. coz they were thinking of changing car. hehe. and koR KOR got his car trade in for a new one for his new year ang poW! eyyer.
. . .

We went to "mm bo's" ( jiu po) house to bai nian, together with my youngest uncle, first aunt and my cousin. I cant recognise them and they cant. But it nice to see them. I like the feeling of knowing how deep and far your roots are.

Went home and i cant stand it anymore,( i slept at 3.30am) i went to sleep till 8pm, so now im wide awake.

Feel the sense of accomplishment, coz i finally blogged without procrastinating. =)

2006-02-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

The consequence of procrastination:

Too many entries to be blogged and published that i lost count, lost my recollection of what to be written... worse- what i've done all these while.

Since 16th till today- 5th FEb!

oh No.

its gonna be another busy SUn, with no time to blog.. so its gotta be procrastinated- again.

2006-02-05T02:04:00.000+08:00

Yah, i cant stand it. and so i am blogging my thoughts down here. as an avenue to vent my frustrations.

U wonder whether you make the right decision. You wonder if this partnership is right. And you will question if you contribute much more than the others. But no matter what, though i understand, i cannot accept the fact that everyone is different. with a different set of thinkings, a different set of opinions, a different way of doing things.

selfish? I've tried to accomodate, i tried to give in- but nah, still wrong, not right.

For instance, a few moments ago, this is what i experienced. Again. Am i trying too hard? Why isit that some ppl out there make so much noise when you are tying ur best, for the better of a common goal. Yet, when u ask them for opinion, for their proactiveness, they are totally the opposite way round- like a tortoise.

This is where i strongly believe that a leader is a need or rather what Daniel said, there should be a boundary of the things to be done. Oh, i understand now,the need of something called the "wedding planner" (or whatever planners there are out there.)

2006-01-30T05:55:00.000+08:00

A new year, a new start, a new beginning.

And since its New year, 2006 + Cny while i was doing this, it shall be RED. =)

Old blog will remain but merely for fun thoughts. Anyway another reason which i am Chucking it into treasure chest is that, it TAKES AGES to Load and publish. so here's a new one~

Melanie? lol. My aunt name me this. But seriously, i never fancy the sound of it. Prefer the short form - mel and i prefer my daddy's pronounciation in chinese- mai le ni. seems more qin qie. lol. He always makes fun of me with that.

anyway i use it for the sake of using it for i cant think of any better nicknames to use. pls don call me this. i will never ans u. and i love my chinese name more than anything else. haha.

and yes, the stupid bank incident does impact me initially for we dont noe what the stupid company wants and what will happen to me. ( and worse- they didnt explain it properly) But it ends up as a "really nothing" incident. But i thought i should start a new blog this lunar new year after that false alarm- alarming matter~

so here it goes!

**``Summary for 2005 is here~ But from 010106 n tht stupid incident, its in sUnd4yz. =)``**

2006-01-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

=) yuppie. its 2006! for the past 364 days,always at this time, it will be just another day. You will still be introducing yourself as," Oh, hi. My name is XXX and i am 18 this year." But now, you have to change and say" i am 19 this year." Though it seem another day but we have stepped into a brand new year.HappY 2006!
This entry serve as a conclusion to year 2005.Though i have always been thinking the year 2005 is BAD, but my last month is really wonderful and i am very thankful for everything. Everything goes very smoothly, really. and my last day ends really very well, with the addition of new frens into the list and new family member. =)

December

Started giving Gielle tuition, went shopping, went Jap and though Christmas eve n Christmas werent as wonderful, the 2nd day of Christmas was great. thankz jt n jy! prior to christmas, on 23rd- there is an additional member to my extended family, my little niece. Wah so Old liao. now my status has upgraded to 'ee' on top of 'gugu'. haha.Working at SM is really great, really regret i have other plans. The ppl there are very nice and amiable. Made a great number of frenz. =) =) and of coz New year eve was wonderful too, with the watching of Fireworks at Marina Sq w jt, jy and py as a full stop to year 2005.With the starting of making little earrings, pendants.. me n yl's webby selling our handmade products are finally done- http://blushingboutique.blogspot.com/with much help from jiayi and roy. love ya!

November
It passed in a blink of an eye. Cliche? But i still have to say this. Major events of coz include the A's. Im buried under notes almost everyday. hafta thank roy n yl, for being my great study partner. n yes, for tolerating me whenever i tell u stories abt XXYY. n thankz to roy for coming up with 'chants' to rmb chem eqns. =P ( though yl always dotn approve of us doing this. )lol. N yes, w Media corps coming to my place to film, with me fanatically finding jobs, crazy over shopping after As... Lastly, Eclub chalet marks the end of November- thankz year 1s^05! well doNE! N yes, to fac, jean +++- thankz for ya breakfast treat!

October sept august July
quite boring though, but i am really glad that a MAJOR misunderstanding b/n some of 27/04 n me are cleared. Many thankz to Christabelle,Anu, Lisi, Lizzie, Grace ( rmb tht shopping trip? yah, ur know & did i miss out anyone? ) for clearing this gigantic Misunderstanding n making my last half year in TJ a happy n memorable one. Esp thankz to grace n Anu for being my great Buddies in class. love ya so much! thankz to eileen also, for always rmbing to invite me to gatherings, dinners. hugz! n yes, thankz to Mr and Mrs Lim for being such nice teachers, and helping me in everyway i can. N thankz to Mr Lim for being so patient w me.Prior to prelims, started to make my own beaded earrings with ting yu acc me and join in the fun.. haha. initially was trying to get frens to share the cost of the half a dozen crystals, beads... it turn out to be my additional source of income. =P

June
Wisdom tooth extraction. Know this great dentist. Inspire me, encouraged me, taught me, advise me.. wheRe in earth will you find such great dentist right? Farewell was wonderful- thankz to jy for really "listening to my feedback" reg the plaque. and for coordinating such amemorable handing over~

May
wHat happen? ermmm.. finally, i typed my resignation letter and finally left sjab. n yes! Sports carnivaL! $56 profit a person- with jian yuan, jingting, GRACE! hehehe. yup, with help from Ms Ang, we went on consignment with Nike and wooHoo! $$$

April
April fool's day? haha. yes, we(roy OW and moky) had that stupid meeeting with Ly,kua and that frog regarding the 3 24124. all ACCUSATIONS. and those rubbish from ly- going a BIG ROUND, trying to tell me those 24124 are stupid.N yup yup! the BOd ( 7 of us) are qualified for the "Make yOur Mark" competitioN! We emerged top 5 in the Jcs category in the prelimaries round! n almost everyday since the results, we meet up to prepare for the presentation. Jianyuan- thankz ah! for burning night oil to produce the superB video!

March
Sj was in a mess with those 24124 around. Life in sj= terrible. ROyston Ow planned this last recreational day- hiking at bukit timah and i am supposed to come up with the cheer book/'handbook' to go along with this hike. so i was busy EVERYDAY and at the hub EVERYDAY. Its a fun hike, esp to us since it involves the whole corps and the 3 piggies. In addition, its an eye opener as we never have had recreational day out of the sch b4.

Feb- new year in fuZHou, china! my cousin's wedding. brrr. but super ShuANG. Bought many cheap things! though there are unhappiness, its all over now. =) My bd, celebrated twice? once with jt coz she's 2 days earlier than mine. Jy org a mini party ( w only pathetic few ppl, haha,oppz) and gave us his left over helim balloons frm valentine's day. =) wah, still can rmb who gave me what for bd. Bod gave me Ocean perfume from Bodyshop, yl n js- fila bottle + fila shoebag + 2 piece of stickers, cheryl- shoe bag from adidas, my desired hp from mummy, ++++....Jani did dread the start of a new year for i did not enjoy 2004. but, to me, its a diff. Cliques changed and i am surprised to see new groups of ppl together. n some ppl left certain clique... haha. But who cares?So

January just ticked away ...